Don't read, I'm just being a drama queen

[himekohimura]

I don't know why, but I feel like I've lost a lot of my friends lately and I've lost the ability to gain new ones. I'm sorry that I've been horribly busy the last half-year and that my posts were just rants about fandom because really, when I'm going through a lot of shit, fangirling keeps me from going insane. There's a lot of people I really want to talk to, but I don't have time to even say hi or when I do, they're busy. *sigh* I don't know what to do with myself. My brain feels like it's failing on me and I can't even write a decent essay without screwing it up. My Japanese is going down the drain because I can't seem to get my mind around it or even concentrate on it. I don't want to fail, but I'm starting to get tired of life. What's there to live for if you don't really have anyone to live with?