I wash me hands of this weirdness.

Neways, I'm so behind in things. I finally got to watching that clip where Koyama kisses that girl. That is just.....so weird. idk, but Koyama actually looks like a good kisser. I always thought he would be, even before I saw the same scene repeated five million times. And is it just me or is Kat-Tun kinda off lately? Like, Jin seems off or something...Janiben is boring to me, wth. Although I kinda like Juniben, but usually only when Kiriyama is on, cause I like Kiriyama. They way he tries too hard is somehow really cute to me. Usually that kind of earnest would make me urg, but *shrug* can't be helped who I like. Muchaburi is also kinda boring too....IDK, I'm not into the whole talk show thing. I mean, they do do things besides sit around and talk so I like it more than Janiben, but it's only two of them. I kinda want all of them to do things together like Honjani.

I've found that I'm much more comfortable speaking in Japanese than I am speaking in English. Like, I can say sorry and thank you and please in Japanese, but I have a hard time saying it in English. Especially sorry. I can't say I'm sorry in English to anyone. Like, if it's something minor or something, no problem, but when I'm trying to be sincere, I can't say it in English. I guess it's a pride thing? idk. I have a hard time saying thank you as well. Or even being proper to someone, like calling them 'Sir' or 'Ma'am'. I can't do it, but in Japanese, it's much easier for me to say things like '-san' or '-kun' and stuff like that. ('-sama' might be hard for me, cause I'd probably just start roll laughing) There are things in Japanese I can't say, like 'Watakushi' or even 'watashi', it's like I have to force them out just for propriety's sake. If I know the person, I'll just blurt out my usual 'ore' and be all boyish and stuff, even though I'm a totally girlly girl. Keigo would be no problem if I knew how, although I'll probably never use it.

I....really like Tohoshiki's debut song, Hug. It's...so pretty, idek. And you know, idk if it's still true, but can I give Min his first kiss? XDDDD *KILLED* And actually, I didn't really like Jae's voice cause it's too r&b, but then I watched the Tonight pv. wth, I think I fell more in love. *dies* And everyone should watch Banjun theatre. I HATE Korean dramas with a passion, but these are just so much win.

A few weeks ago, a cow got out of her meadow and was roaming the streets all alone. We came along in our van and she stepped out in front of our car. Fortunately, we were going slow and was able to stop in time. She looked at our car and then trotted over to us, making her way to my side of the car. She looked in the window, and chewed thoughtfully at me. And that was the beginning of the beautiful relationship between me and my cow Bessie. She lives in a large meadow with other cows. However, she is the only black cow there and the other brown cows seem to group together, leaving poor Bessie to fend for herself. We caught her as she was running away from home, distressed by the prejudice of the other cows, looking for a better home. But after our meaningful encounter, she was able to accept her role in the world of cows and went back home. ^___^ I wave to her as we pass by, happy that she's finally found her place.

Yeah, I'm weird for befriending a cow. But she's cute. Maybe I really will take a picture and show you guys the awesomeness that is my Bessie. XDDDD